Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Why I don't miss my depression

Where would I be without the Boston Globe for fodder for my blog? Yet another completely idiotic and annoying article in today's op-eds. This one is entitled I Miss My Depression.

It's hard to know where to begin with this one.

Here's a sample from the article:
Amidst the crushing poignancy, I was also more creative, more perceptive, more in tune with the world. I can remember entire weeks when I was depressed more clearly than I can remember the particulars of any one day last week. Although days were interminable back then, they were also alive and palpable, bursting with beautiful futility.

Basically, the author, Tim Bugansky says that when he was depressed, he felt things more intensely. And now that he is not depressed, he misses those intense feelings of sadness.

Too bad for him.

My depression probably started around age 11 or 12, and continued until my early 30s when my then-boyfriend-now-husband suggested that I seek therapy because I was sad all the time. It took several years of therapy until my therapist suggested medication, and once I started taking it, my life changed. For the better. Believe me, I don't miss my depression in the least.

Now, I take my little pills each day, and I can enjoy life. I can walk outside and see the trees changing color and feel joy instead of emptiness. I don't feel a strange sense of feeling empty and alone when the rest of the world seems joyful and part of something larger.

To be fair, I know that some people on medication for depression complain that they feel that their feelings are a bit too smoothed out, that they miss the highs and lows. This hasn't been my experience, so maybe I'm not too empathic about this situation. For me, I know that anything is better than the depression was. If I have to miss a few highs and lows, so be it.

But to romanticize depression the way this author does... shame on him.


BipolarLawyerCook said...

Drives me nuts, too. All this "it's so romantic" shit. Fine. Just don't share, and make people think they can ditch their meds and be better. Grr.

nyjlm said...

yikes. I can't imagine how anyone could say that. It is interesting that a male author wrote this-I wonder if it is b/c men don't necessarily recognize their emotions as readily as most women do?

nachtwache said...

I've got my little pills, what I miss is my joy, before I got depression, I haven't got that back, but I can function. When I'm depressed, I just want to sleep and avoid life.