Saturday, January 31, 2009

Trying to believe

Ma gadlu ma'asecha ya
M'od amku machshvotecha....
Hallelujiah

How great are your works Ya (G-d)
How very deep are your thoughts
Hallelujiah

There were several times during Sisterhood Shabbat this morning that I actually felt a physical tingling sensation throughout my body, something that doesn't usually happen to me at shul. I don't know if it was being there praying with so many women; the English readings, which were very moving; or the community I felt with the women who had worked together on the day. But it was very other-worldly.

The speaker, Rabbi Dr. Analia Bortz, was amazing. I don't remember so much of what she actually said, but more her presence was amazing. She sang these words (above) and talked about prayer, about G-d, about women and prayer, but more than that, she embodied prayer. Her presence felt prayer-ful. I am typically very cynical about prayer, but I was touched by her.

Also, when the rabbi announced the mi'shebeirach for cholim (the prayer for the sick), a whole line of people formed. There is a lot going on right now in the community, sickness both physical and emotional. I remembered reading something recently about how with the Torah open, there is a space open to the Divine, and perhaps those prayers will actually make it up to G-d. I was also reminded of someone once telling me how when a bride and groom stand under the wedding canopy, that there is an opening to G-d in that moment, and that some actually give the bride notes of supplication to G-d. Awesome.

Ma gadlu ma'asecha ya
M'od amku machshvotecha....
Hallelujiah

How great are your works Ya (G-d)
How very deep are your thoughts
Hallelujiah

3 comments:

Ashi and Rami's Ima said...

Glad to hear this Shabbos offered you some moments of healing. You're on my mi sheberach list, lady. Hang in there. ((((hugs))))

Kibbitz said...

We have a service for families with young children once a month named Ma Gadlu. It is quite nice to see the families feel comfortable in a service. I wish most services were like Kabbalat Shabbat. Or as my son fondly calls it "KabShab".

nachtwache said...

To me, such sensations are G-d touching me, His presence.