I'm feeling much better. My surgeon told me to rest, and I've rested. My right side is still sore where the incisions are, but really not terribly sore. I'm probably going to head into work tomorrow. I'm feeling pretty normal.
On the other hand (there's always another hand - sometimes more than one) I'm worried about the results that I have yet to receive. Here's what I'm worried about:
1. clean margins - did the surgeon manage to get a 2 millimeter margin around the tumor that she removed? if she didn't, will I have to have more surgery?
2. lymph nodes - did pathology find cancer in the lymph nodes (or node - I think it was only 1) that were/was removed? if there is no cancer, I may be able to avoid chemo and just have radiation. if there is cancer, they may need to take out more lymph nodes, and I'll probably need chemo.
3. genetic testing - I haven't been thinking a lot about the genetic test that is being evaluated...but the 3 week point is coming up. Although the chance is low, it is a possibility. If I come up positive for the genetic mutation, that will mean that they'll want to take out my ovaries, that I'll have to decide about a prophylactic double mastectomy (which I think I'm leaning against) and may impact other members of my family. Yuck.
So there you have it, in black and white. My body is healing from the surgery, but I still have some potentially difficult news to receive. Or the news could be great. Or some great, some bad. There's always that third hand....