Thursday, June 09, 2011

Being new is hard

It's not that I'm not grateful. I am so very grateful for this new job. It came at a great time, just when my old one was about to end. The new job is at a great institution, I found convenient parking, everyone seems very friendly and very smart, I've pretty much settled into my little cubicle (no office for me here, no door, no window, no privacy).

But I just feel so awkward.

I don't really know what I'm supposed to do yet. I'm getting an idea of what my new project is about, but I don't know exactly what to do. Is that crazy?

Wednesday, June 01, 2011

Let the party begin!

Well, I've thought about it, ruminated on it, worried about it, ignored it, been distracted by it, and thought about it some more, but now it's here. It's June 2011. In 25 days, I'm turning 50. The big 5-0. There is no denying it, and no turning back.

One way I'm dealing with it is by making plans. I have things planned for each weekend (and more) this month. I'm going to a ballgame with A; having brunch with some of my women friends; going to NYC with two close women friends to see plays, go to museums, eat wonderful food, and experience that which is New York City; and on the actual day of my birth, I'll be with my birth family for the start of a week-long vacation on the Cape.

In addition, I'm ending my current job, and starting a new one.

Let the party begin!